[Edit]I am telling stuff that you know...But please read the bottom Its important...If I did pass away I hope you do some stuff for me...

I just got her news...She passed, because of one mistake during the surgery...Posie was really sweet really caring and like Ruby said she would always think of the positive side even how bad the fanart for her was...And her comment was always the most longest most sweetest most awesome most caring....I regretted I didn't really take her as friend so seriously, didn't talk to her that much didn't really care for her...Maybe that's why I'm not one of her friends that was mentioned in her diary...I really regretted...I'm not just saying I mean it...I really felt like crying but I didn't...

To all those close friends of hers that felt like crying...Please don't, Posie wouldn't be happy when she sees you crying from up in Heaven...And you should smile as she is now free like Rae said...Well what i know is she's been staying in the hospital for very long...Its really suffering just lie there, sleep, watch the people goes by, getting injections and all...But now she is free from all these now in Heaven living internal life <3 When she sees you are happy she would let down rainbow raindrops on you, watching you loving you from up aobve <3

I might be telling something that you already know, well some info might be wrong...I been unactive in dA...I won't be replying comments FYI, maybe after a month I mgiht be back...Its really sad to hear stuff like this...As you can see my English is not good, I might be writing stupid stuff but this came from my heart...Once again, I meant every word I said...I really love her <3 If she is still here I would leave a comment everyday just to talk to her see her smile <3 Well about the friends thingy, well I was a bit sad but it was my fault but I don't really mind about it now...I have no right to be angry with it right ? But she did say everyone of her friends too <3 But I'm not angry seriously, just a little little bit sad but I'm okay ! I would seemed a bit rude to say stuff like this...I changed, now I do not lie and what I promise I would do...But if really do seemed rude I'm really really sorry...

Oh ya I wanan add soemthing..The last word I said to her was:
"Posie we all love you and are supporting you <3 You will live longer believe in God."
It was so short and I think when you all see this you might think I said this just to make her happy ? No ! I meant it by heart again ! I really thought she would live longer...And her last words to me were:
"Awwww thanks so much."
Something like that I didn't really wanna go Next Page x 10000000000 and check whether its wrong. But ! I hope you all would still remember her and love her as much as you do even she's not here right now ! I might seemed that I am not sad right now, but please believe and trust me...I am as the same sad as you...If I could I would give half of my heart for her to live...I am not saying only (once again) I meant what I said...Well you still can live with half hearts right ? You won't die so why not ? But when I go do surgery can cut it half I might go crazy. Its like meaningless to stay in dA without her, without her sweet comments and all..Its really hard to accept but times heals everything...<3 I will always always love you Posie, FOREVER and EVER and EVER no matter where you are...I might be following you soon...I think I have fever...Might be H1N* TOUCH WOOD !!! (Malaysian Chinese Speak) CHOI CHOI CHOI CHOI CHOI CHOI !!! (Means touch wood I guess) What is touch wood anyway ? Anyways...Last word ! Smile pleaseee !!!

And also hoho I write a lot..If I really did go with Posie...What I want you to do is:
1)Continue to love me and remember me FOREVER.
2)Stay happy and don't cry whether its for me, for your boyfriend/girlfriend whatever/haven't finish your homework and its a lot and you have to pass it up tomorrow(Like I always do)
3)Please post a journal about how you love me (Hehehehe I would love to see it in Heaven)
4)Draw me in a white gown...Well not gown short skirt but not really short and like gowns but not gowns LAWL just not that long..It was my favourite type of dress...Ya I know what it is a lready I wan myself in a white dress..I just figured it out just now...
5)Give me as much teddy bears as you can ! I want a big one...Not jsut small...
6)And I want you to type as much of "I love you Joy!" as you can !
7) Live life as happy as you can and try everything...Try going into cinema ticketless maybe ? I don't know just try...Try getting Fantastic for exam...
8)Pray for INternet in Heaven. And a nice computer for me in Heaven and a nice banglo or Mansion maybe....oh and a BMW/Ferrari and pray for car license for under 18 <3
9)Rememebr me as least once in awhile (Once again) I was really afraid you would forget me
10)REALLY YOU MUST REALLY REMMEBER ME, I would be really sad if you don't...

I think its done <3 My wishlists when I passed away...